is it all the same??

So why is it when you are comfy in a relationship it seems all the things that used to make you feel warm and fuzzy go away? Or do they and you just notice them less and less??? I used to think I was a good catch in many different aspects but lately I don't feel that way...I almost feel like a ball and chain...like put a fork in me cuz I'm done...sooooo not right and not good for the self-esteem. I am a very fit, big breasted(natural) blonde chic that's super cool! But yet I feel I'm everything but what my guy is looking for...and that's the last thing I want. I get compliments everyday from random strangers but its the LAST thing I want! I want the man who is supposed to spend the day and night with me to be the one feeling he is satisfied and lucky to be with me a woman of my demeanor...what I represent and how I look and feel about everything. I guess my question or wonder is, how do you get that back? How do you not NAG at your man to make you feel good and do you not make yourself feel that way w/out your man? I want to be that hot woman my man tries to look at on a daily basis for wants and desires whether it be to fantasize about or that girlfriend that is always there for you....help!!!!!

holiday season

Why is it this year that Christmas doesn't seem to have any of the spirit behind it? Its like the weather isn't the same, peoples attitudes are different and even I'm different...haha that's probably my answer. I let too many things distract me to where I didn't get somebody to help me put my lights up outside. I'm sooooo all about Christmas that I get everything possible done asap so I can have it out and around for the longest time. Anybody that knows me knows how much I LOVE Christmas! My love life has been on the fritz and I'm struggling trying to keep things positive b/c my man is working soooo much so we never see each other anymore but its for the holidays and all the money we're spending. All said and done I just want to feel warm and fuzzy about everything this time of the year! So I guess that means it all comes down to me and my choices and attitudes! :) Have a Merry Christmas!! Cant believe its a day and a half away?!?!

a new job

So, i'm just wondering if its me or if there is something really wrong with the fact that my boss has not approached me about a job opening that has came up? I'm the only qualified candidate here in Tucson and he knows I was disappointed when I did not get the last store opening. I'm stuck in the position of not saying anything due to not wanting to commit career suicide by sounding bithchy but want to find out whats going on and his thoughts. The opportunity is far and few between due to there being only 3 corporate stores, and one manager(my boss) has been with the company for years and years and probably isn't going anywhere and the other is the one who just got the position that we both applied for back in May. So here we are and I have to wait until January to see whats going to happen. I'm sitting here in the dark due to him not even responding back to my email about asking about his plans and expressing my interests. Its so frustrating to me and I'm just wondering if I am overreacting or have a valid complaint....